Bye.

It's so hard to let go of someone you love, even when you don't feel loved by them. Sometimes our pride gets in the way of our feelings. And sometimes we are willing to lose out on the best things in our lives over stupid things. But sometimes it's necessary to let go. Even if it hurts so bad. Someone always ends up losing, and it's usually the one invested in the relationship. And it's so hard to not run over to that person and cry and hug them. But fear always takes over and defeats you... i love you. even when it's not what i get back, i love you. and i pray you find what you didn't find in me.

Always, Sometimes, Never 3

I Always

want someone to love
want someone to love me
expect too much


I Sometimes

cry out of joy
give up too quick
cry out of anger


I Never

want to be taken for granted
have liked pain
judge

The Truth Is...

- I want to live alone with my kids.
I have lived alone with them, and I have lived with a partner. In my situation, I think living alone, just me and my kids is a better fit for me.

- I don't like anyone telling me what to do.
I am old enough where I think I know what I am doing. I don't want anyone telling me how I should be doing things with my life.

- I love my job.
I went to school. Tried different directions to go to. I never thought about leasing. But I love it.

Way Back Wednesday 9

two years ago. i had just had noah :)