Mi Vida Loca, LOL

By your own soul, learn to live
And if men thwart you, take no heed.
If men hate you, have no care.
Sing your song, dream your dream,
Hope your hope and pray your prayer.

 

 

I am me, and no one can tell me what to say or feel. I know who I am and what I want out of life. If someone can't see that, I'm sorry. Not because I care what they see or think. But because they are blind and clueless. I will not change for anyone. I will hope and pray that I am understood... this is my only life. And only I can make it what I want it to be...

It Is You

Sometimes people come into your life and you don't know it then, but they come in and the connection between you is so wonderfully strong that you wonder how your life even came to be without that person in the first place. Like, how could you exist without your other half, your soul mate. It's crazy how you went around in life without this. Everything begins to make sense now. Everything about that person resonates a true friendship and love. They become a part of you without you even noticing. You think about them constantly without even trying. You want to know everything about them. You get along great and have so many things in common, it's even kinda eerie. Age, status, and looks don't matter to you anymore. You want to be around that person all the time, just to see if you can discover yet one more thing you love about them. The thought of them brings a smile to your face. You giggle under your breath when you remember something goofy they once said or did to you. You curse every minute you don't spend with them, because that is another minute wasted. You look forward to your next meeting, phone call or text. And with all this said, it all is still very new and innocent. Everyone says to take things slow, be careful, but sometimes you just can't help it. Sometimes you can't control what your heart is feeling, what's there is just too strong.

Is this love?

I believe so...

Bye, bye, bye!

In life you have to know when to give up on something and when to fight for it. If there are always excuses being thrown around as to why you are no longer a part of someones life, don't even bother. You are not a part of that person's life because they no longer want you in it. Stop degrading yourself. If someone truly loves you and wants you, it will be plain as day to see. Be graceful, and let it go. Move on.

That being said, if you are the one that does not want that other person in your life, make sure you really let that be known. Grow some motherfucken balls and say it. Show it. Don't say bullshit like, "i love you, you will always be my queen," and in the same sentence say you want nothing to do with that person. You're lame...
Truth is, I've been over it...

Deserving

I can't do this anymore. I will not allow anyone to treat me  this way anymore. No one can pick my destiny. No one holds my happiness in their hands. I hold the key to my happiness. And I'm over the feeling sad and crying. I will do whatever it takes to be happy again. And all of this without having to sacrifice a grain of happiness. I will be loved and wanted. I will be happy. I know my worth. And I deserve this...

Open Mind & Open Heart

My life is falling apart, and I don't know what to do to stop it from unraveling... I've cried myself to sleep the last couple of nights. I cry every time I think about it. I don't know why it's hitting me so hard. And there is absolutely nothing I can do to stop this. The only comfort I have is that I know who I am and what I've done. Even if I'm the only one who believes in me. I believe in me. And that someday I will be happy. I hope someday I will be, at least. My heart is open... As are my arms.

Harp Harp Like A Little Violin

It's crazy when people want to harp about things you've done in the past, say how unkind you have been, and then turn around and do the same to you. You treated me this way and that way, and you don't know how it felt. You made me feel like shit. You have hurt me so much... It's crazy because those same people have also treated you this way and that way. They have also made you feel like shit. But they did know how they were making you feel. And they do know what they are doing to you now.
These kind of people are vindictive and petty. Insecure and shallow.
When someone is mean to you, it is Ok to get mad. Tell them how you feel, how they've made you feel. You can argue with them. Try and prove your point. And then you make a choice and go with it. You can either forgive that person for the past. Or you move on. It is never Ok to"forgive"and then be cruel. That is not Ok.

Treat people how you want to be treated.

Actions always prove why words mean nothing

I'm so confused.

Just want someone to hold me. Hug me. Tell me I'm loved. A simple touch. A small kiss here and there. .. It seems like something so easy to achieve. It's not hard,  I think. But instead I am being lead to believe that the only time someone can feel wanted and loved is when the other person wants to bone. Other than that,  fat chance...

But then,  there's times when it's like all they want from you is sex. But they treat you different. And you feel as if there's something there...

Regardless. Just hate that it's always this way. When you like someone they don't like you,  but there's some poor soul out there wishing you were with them. I wish to for once be on the same page with someone...