Bye, bye, bye!

In life you have to know when to give up on something and when to fight for it. If there are always excuses being thrown around as to why you are no longer a part of someones life, don't even bother. You are not a part of that person's life because they no longer want you in it. Stop degrading yourself. If someone truly loves you and wants you, it will be plain as day to see. Be graceful, and let it go. Move on.

That being said, if you are the one that does not want that other person in your life, make sure you really let that be known. Grow some motherfucken balls and say it. Show it. Don't say bullshit like, "i love you, you will always be my queen," and in the same sentence say you want nothing to do with that person. You're lame...
Truth is, I've been over it...

Deserving

I can't do this anymore. I will not allow anyone to treat me  this way anymore. No one can pick my destiny. No one holds my happiness in their hands. I hold the key to my happiness. And I'm over the feeling sad and crying. I will do whatever it takes to be happy again. And all of this without having to sacrifice a grain of happiness. I will be loved and wanted. I will be happy. I know my worth. And I deserve this...

Open Mind & Open Heart

My life is falling apart, and I don't know what to do to stop it from unraveling... I've cried myself to sleep the last couple of nights. I cry every time I think about it. I don't know why it's hitting me so hard. And there is absolutely nothing I can do to stop this. The only comfort I have is that I know who I am and what I've done. Even if I'm the only one who believes in me. I believe in me. And that someday I will be happy. I hope someday I will be, at least. My heart is open... As are my arms.

Harp Harp Like A Little Violin

It's crazy when people want to harp about things you've done in the past, say how unkind you have been, and then turn around and do the same to you. You treated me this way and that way, and you don't know how it felt. You made me feel like shit. You have hurt me so much... It's crazy because those same people have also treated you this way and that way. They have also made you feel like shit. But they did know how they were making you feel. And they do know what they are doing to you now.
These kind of people are vindictive and petty. Insecure and shallow.
When someone is mean to you, it is Ok to get mad. Tell them how you feel, how they've made you feel. You can argue with them. Try and prove your point. And then you make a choice and go with it. You can either forgive that person for the past. Or you move on. It is never Ok to"forgive"and then be cruel. That is not Ok.

Treat people how you want to be treated.

Actions always prove why words mean nothing

I'm so confused.

Just want someone to hold me. Hug me. Tell me I'm loved. A simple touch. A small kiss here and there. .. It seems like something so easy to achieve. It's not hard,  I think. But instead I am being lead to believe that the only time someone can feel wanted and loved is when the other person wants to bone. Other than that,  fat chance...

But then,  there's times when it's like all they want from you is sex. But they treat you different. And you feel as if there's something there...

Regardless. Just hate that it's always this way. When you like someone they don't like you,  but there's some poor soul out there wishing you were with them. I wish to for once be on the same page with someone...

Housewife

Now,  I've only been at this housewifing' thing for about 2 weeks. And don't get me wrong, I am enjoying my time off, but this kinda sucks! You cook, clean, drive around making sure everyone is where they are supposed to be. You cook and clean some more. Take care of everyone. Then the kids get home and they are off doing their daily routines. Homework. Trying to keep up. Dinner. Showers. Before they are off to bed just to do it all over again. And then your partner comes home. Dinner. And heads to his daily routine of doing anything to avoid you...

You take care of everyone and then at the end of the day,  you end up TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF too! Literally...

Nurture Your Relationship

I read this article,  and it really made a lot of sense to me. For 5 months I was on my own. I was trying to find myself. Trying to make sense of my relationship. The whole time I was gone, he kept fighting to get me back home. But I was afraid. Because before I left, I felt I was in a rut. Stuck in a relationship that had no love, no passion, nothing much to look forward to.
I'm back again. And more scared than ever. So I am trying to read and inform myself to try and do things a little different. Hoping I'm not in this alone and that this time I'm here to stay.

10 Ways to Nurture Your Relationship

A relationship cannot survive on its own. It needs the care and nurturing of two adults, giving to each other in a way that creates a mutually beneficial connection. To foster a deep and loving relationship, there needs to be:

1. Kind, constant, and honest communication.
Without talking, your relationship will not survive. The more you communicate, the closer you will be.
(Don't ignore me. I want to be able to talk to you about anything.)

2. The willingness to work through difficulties and disagreements.
Throwing in the towel, even if you don’t walk out the door, is not the path to happiness. You must face the discomfort that comes with differing opinions and ideas.
(I won't agree with everything you have to say, but someone to hear you out is always good. )

3. A sense of humor, some fun, and a bit of distraction from the rigors of daily life.
You can’t spend all your free time “working” on your relationship—don’t make it a hobby. Discuss what you like to do, where you’d like to go, and how you both like to have fun. Then go do it. (Date nights were fun and that is something I would like to continue doing.)

4. Sharing life lessons with the one you love.
When you discover something about life, or you make a self-correcting move that is healthy for your relationship, let your partner know. You’ll be surprised by the positive response. (It's always sexy when you try to improve on yourself.)

5. Emotional support, validation, and compliments.
If you don’t feel that you partner likes and respects you, there will not be a strong connection. You have to lift each other up and let each other know the depth of your caring.(A compliment can take you so far. I have to know that I'm wanted, because if I'm not wanted, then what is the point of all this?)

6. Love, intimacy, romance, and sex.
These are the cornerstones of a loving relationship. Being great roommates just won’t cut it. There has to be the desire to be together as a couple. You may think the spark has gone, but there are too many ways to rekindle it. All you have to do is try.(90% of the time that a person cheats on their partner is because they are not getting something at home. Be fun n show your partner that you love them and still think they are sexy.)

7. Sharing goals and dreams that resonate with both of you.
We are happier when we are working toward a goal than when we have achieved one. Make sure you always have something to look forward to and that you are pursuing it as a couple. (I want to know what you are working towards, and that I will be there with you when you achieve it.)

8. Compassion, acceptance, and forgiveness.
These will show you the way through a difficult time. If you are together for a while, there will be losses, challenges, and some things that you just can’t fix. Weathering the storms together is a big part of what relationships are all about.(Make a choice to move on,  and do it. Don't dwell on the past.)

9.A mutual desire to step outside the box.
The tried-and-true is good, but the never- attempted-before may be better. Couples who share new experiences together develop a stronger bond.(Doing new things is always fun.)

10. Being able to admit mistakes and to talk about them.
We all screw up. Learning to understand and let go of mistakes that you or your partner make will turn your life around and give you more time for joy.(Like I said before. Make a choice to move on and just do it! )

Just as we need to breathe to survive, your love needs a breath of fresh air to flourish. Giving your relationship what it needs to thrive is a truly loving gesture.